I have acquired new tools. I wanted to start this post by asking some of you out there about the type of art pieces you wanted to see from me. But I am trying to figure out what it is I can provide in order to not only please you guys, but my self. I am in a stage of my career where I need to elevate my art to another level. Why this feeling? Because I have struggled for 15 years trying to find a balance for what I do, and having split personality does not help. I have made a commitment to not run away because for too long I was afraid, afraid that my art is not good enough for anyone, including me. I have countless of unfinished sketchbooks because I was never satisfied with the art I created. I realized something, I am not using my gift to its full potential. and this is not just an interest, I have loved drawing since the first time I was pun in front of an easel back when I was 3.
I had to come to a real understanding with my self, that was "do I walk away from this and embark on another quest leaving all those hours of hard work and self fulfillment behind, or make the best of it and continue to grow. It seemed like the last scene of the (Exorcism of Emily Rose) movie. And not only that, as a freelancer I have encountered stubborn clients who either burned me, or I have had a displeasing experience with. At the time I though that it was all shit, and artists should have more say, blah blah blah, but in the end it allowed me to create a better system of marketing my self and allowed me to filter out who I want to work with.
The hardest thing I have ever done is the thing I love to do the most. So I will work harder to make better content and inspire many as many have inspired me.
Later Space Cowboys